It's been a wonderful week with Dave, David, and my new Facebook travel group friend here. I was so happy to have my guy here and even a bit more family drama entered the picture right when they were arriving. I tell ya' 2019 has been an emotionally shit year! So anyway, it was extra good to have some support this week in particular. I won't get into it all, but basically I was asked to cut my trip short to come home and help out a family member. Normally i'd be all over that if I weren't in such bad shape myself. I'm just barely getting wound down here and will begin to work on healing myself in the coming month I have here. To go home now would be disastrous for me. Fortunately we got it all worked out and although I feel a bit guilty, I can't tell you what a relief it is.

We did a bit of this and that during the week. Hung out on the amazing deck here and watched the free entertainment of the wildlife, watched the tropical downpours, drove over to Golifito for a meal and cheaper grocery shopping, walked around Arena Alta (Noah's place), found a sloth on the neighbor's property, drove over to Pavones surf town (where basically everything was closed for the season), and ate at Sol y Mar a couple of times, even during the day-long power outage. It's so rare that I get to share my travels with my guy (other than the nice vacations we go on together)!

But the guys left yesterday and Drew left this morning. I will admit that as soon as Dave drove away yesterday, quite a bit of anxiety and depression set in. I felt so so alone and was wondering what the hell I'm doing here when the few people I have left that care about me are at home. But I know home is no good for me right now and I won't be able to start to mend with the memories and material things piled around me there.

I got a nice email from a travel friend the other day saying how when you lose the people that were such a big part of your life, that you're left having to redefine yourself. That's a good way to put it and a good thing for me to focus on.

So now I have the beach house back to myself and I have some new food that both Dave bought me and that I inherited from Drew when she left this morning. I almost inherited some vodka, but we decided to polish that off at 9:30 this morning while she was packing. LOL

P.S. It sure is hard to work on my website with people around to play with!